And then I found my Daddy

Here it is...2014, and I'm in this fucked up "relationship" (if that's what you want to call it). I've done everything sexually that this man could ever ask for, and yet it wasn't enough for him. After 2.5 years I had come to terms that I would never be enough for him, and he was no longer worth my time or my effort. So, I decided to take his advice...I decided to go and find someone else, and in that process I found myself.

I never imagined that I could find someone so much like me. I never imagined that I could be so loved and accepted. I never imagined this is what my soul mate would look like.

I was introduced to the BDSM lifestyle in 2008. I was dating a guy who was in the army. He had an ex that was said to do any and everything for him sexually. She was talked about and judged for her actions, and I'll admit that I was amongst the ones who were judging her until I walked in her shoes. It was something about him that allowed me to release all control...something that demanded submission, and I gave it to him willingly. He became my "kryptonite". I craved him and his Dominance. It was such a freeing feeling. I learned from him how to submit, how to allow someone else to be in control of my life. I learned how to let go, and I realize now that this is what I have been craving for so long...an area of my life where for once someone else was in control. I was happy here until his ex decided that she wanted her spot back. So, I left them to be with each other, and I moved on with this void in my life that wouldn't be filled until I met my Daddy.

I found my Daddy by happenstance. I wasn't really looking for him and he just magically appeared in my life. I followed him on twitter at the recommendation of someone else I followed. One day he asked his TL a question and I answered. That lead to him sending me a DM and the rest is history. We weren't even talking about anything BDSM related. I don't even remember how the subject of BDSM came up, but it was revealed to me that he was a Dom and I told him I was a sub and things just progressed.

My Daddy has been everything that I have needed, everything that I have been missing in vanilla relationships since 2009. He has shown me the true definition of love and acceptance. He has allowed me to be me completely, and he cultivates the person that I am supposed to be. He supports me in all facets of my life. He nurtures me, and he's allowing me to heal from the past hurt that I have had to deal with. Sometimes I feel that my submission to him is not enough because he does so much for me. I just want to give more, do more, serve more. But, his answer is always "You're perfect". Even so, I am always working on myself to be a better sub for me and a better sub to him.